Are you comfortable in front of people, or does the idea of public speaking make you want to hide in the bathroom? Why?
I hate public speaking. I just hate the idea of being in the middle of the room where there are people listening to me and looking at every move I am making. I pretty much just hate it when the people’s attention is on me. I just like existing and being in the background. I hate standing out.
This photo above is from February when we had an open house recruitment in the office. Our team was tasked to do a product demo of our app to the applicants. Nobody volunteered and I didn’t want my TL to do all the work so even if I really hate public speaking, I said I’ll do it. See, I hate it, but there are times when I feel compelled to get out of my comfort zone. My manager prepared the presentation during our shift the night before and I had to make an outline of what I was going to say based off the presentation. We did one practice during my shift and like I know what I am going to say, I practiced it a lot in my head, but it’s just different when you are already presenting it in front of many people. I do think it went well, during both times because I knew the subject so well, it’s easy to just talk about it. But I was definitely so nervous prior to the presentation and I was definitely shaking and my heart was beating so fast as I wait for my turn to speak.
This is just a one-time thing, I think it will take a long time before I do something like this again. I just wanted to take one for the team and participate. I actually don’t know why I’m like this. I think I have always been like this, even as a kid. I really hate recitation in class because everyone’s listening to you and looking at you as you speak. I even hate introducing myself in class – it’s just so embarrassing to me. I think I’m really just an anxious person and it goes in all-time high when everyone’s attention is on me. So yeah, the bottom line is public speaking is just not for me. I’d rather write down my thoughts, like what I’m doing now.
Inspired by this ebook, “365 Days of Writing Prompts” posted here.